Although lately I don’t have time for myself (that’s why I don’t do contest prizes T_T I’m really sorry for that) I watched two really great documentary movies at nights this week. One „Beats of Freedom” english movie about music- rock and punk and youth in PRL (People’s Republic Of Poland). The second one was „Colonel Jin Xing: A Unique Destiny”- about first transsexual Woman (big letter because she deserve every kind of respect) in People’s Republic of China. I tell you what I feel about this movies.

Beats of Freedom

I was amazed. One of the best documentary film I’ve ever watched. Maybe it’s because most of the band that was showed in this movie was my favorites when I was a kid. Yeah- I was punk- my ear had so many piercings that could fit in I wanted to have tattoos (still want) and piercing in my mouth, my hair was dyed red with black elements, my hairstyle was changing really fast colors were almost the same (for example I had irokes, later I was modeling my hair like Nobu from Nana). My clothes was like old punks with chains and all that stuff XD When I was young I found my mom’s cassettes. That’s when I fell in love with this music. When my mom was young she was listening to this kind of music, but when I started she got angry pretty fast XP maybe it’s because at that time I started to change. But not because of music. Sad thing she was thinking it was it’s fault… anyway Movie was really great. Great to the point after I watched it I started to search for the cassettes (I searched all night!) I didn’t want to talk. Right now I want to listen to TSA and all bands from my mom’s youth X3 partly mine too. I hope I won’t feel the urge to come back to my old punk style XD But I can say… I want freedom- maybe not that kind of freedom I had In Middle school, because it was too crazy and pitiful XP

 Jing Xing

You must see this film… this person is amazing.  I was going to write more, but some days passed and my life began to be very complicated again -.-‘

Artist block

 As you can see I have another one -.-‘ that’s the reason why I’m not adding much works and drawing contest prizes take so much time…

My house

I just cleaned it up O_O and you know what? I found my desk, bed and the floor XDDDDD only places and things that I always keep clean are my collections :D If I will bored I take some photos of it and show it to you :D you can say what kind of person I am when you look at this…


At Friday my boss made a meeting for all workers. To wish then happy Christmas. Of course when she said about one minute of silent for those who died from workers and workers family everyone started to look at me.  Now I know why Mrs. E didn’t came…

After this meeting I wanted to escape to my place of work but Mrs. J and Mr. M stopped me and start to hug. I only thought about running away from that place. Damn them all.

My journalist work

I supposed to write new article till today. Of course I can't be lucky enough to receive answers from my callers... I must think what I will say my editors...


…at Friday send me a letter: you are are deleted from the list of students. I can never have a happy and calm life… I must go to deanery and do something about it… I hope everything will be alright… but somehow I can’t imagine it… The saddest thing is that I'm f*****g failure and mu Older Brother would disappointed in me...



23.12.2010, 19:28 ::
Od razu pisz odwołanie do dziekana z prośbą o przywrócenie na listę studentów, o ile już tego wcześniej nie zrobiłeś. Mam nadzieję, że coś z tego wyjdzie.
*moc uścisków*

20.12.2010, 17:26 ::
A woman from my work who's husband died this year...

20.12.2010, 16:52 ::
Who's Mrs E.?